I completely understand, Lab-Scientist-Lady!!! Mourning is a journey, and I still struggle with it at times. I’ve decided that if my path has changed, I need to make the best of it, so I decided to throw myself into getting “real” answers instead of “symptomatic help” for me, sure, but mainly for my kids and everyone else suffering. My research indicates that many of our problems are avoidable. I think doctors relied on “genetic defect, therefore you need to live with it” for too long. I pray that my work will make this condition a nuisance — loose joints. That is what it “should be”, right? 😉